Celebrity Life... in Miami baby! (College Style)

Today was the worst day ever of my days in this office. I made so many dumb mistakes. I feel like the world's biggest jackass. At least my boss did not shout at me, but still, I felt so small. I was afraid to look him in the eye all day.

Sigh.

The only good news that I got today was marred by my mother's lack of support and negativity. I'll share it with you all nonetheless... I got into the school of my choice. St. Thomas University. But NOT as a transfer student. Why? Would you believe the credits I have are not applicable for use in any US college apparently. So basically, if I wanted any kind of recognition for my hard work, I'd have to be stuck in the Caribbean. So after all that money spent on evaluating my transcripts and all the calls to Trinidad... I end up having to start afresh and not getting the transfer grant of $7000 but I do get $3000 off anyway. I was happy that my admissions officer called me and let me know the deal and then I called my mother to hear her say congrats or something.

Steups.

All she said was you may have to stay here and go to UWI and then after you can go away. Stay here? I do not want to stay here. It means living in their house MINUS income, meaning Id go back to the life I had before I left for Trinidad. She didn't even say, we'll try something. Nothing. So now I feel like I have no support (damn... the tears wont stop coming) and basically my mantra is dead to me. You know what I always say right? "Where there's a will, there's a way." Well now, it's like if the will had no money then you dont have a way. As for my Dad? Heh. He'll be like "We have no money... blah blah blah... "

Maybe I should sell drugs... or maybe I should sell myself. What y'all think?

I am trying not to be selfish and spoilt. But damn... after all the things I went through... it's hard not to react this way.

I just need to clear my head and come to some sort of conclusion. All I know is that I do not want to go to UWI in Jamaica and I do NOT want to be in my parent's house.

I just want to thank Renz, Traci, Roj, Tish, syn and Lesley for trying to comfort me. Roj, thanks a lot for sharing your love with me... I'm waiting anxiously for my package. I really appreciate it.

Now, I just need a spliff or something...

posted by Cary @ 7:12 PM